Back when I was still agreeable to having sexual intercourse with my narcissistic husband, I noticed that he would never try to spend time with me unless it was to have sex. He, literally, would not look for me, think about me, or make any attempt at spending quality time with me at all outside of having sex. I was always the one going to him to see if he wanted to do things with me. If he was doing something, I would try to see if I could tag along with him. I was the one who was always looking for fun activities for us to do together. It was important for me to try to find things that I thought he might enjoy, not just something that looked good to me. He did not do the same things in return. Although sometimes he would join me in some activities, it was obvious that he was half-heartedly partaking in the activity. He obviously did not crave to spend time with me- unless it was having sex. It was after I had gone to bed, in the early morning hours when it was still dark, that he would come into the bedroom. I am a very light sleeper, and him waking me up out of deep sleep was not good for me because it's difficult for me to get back to sleep. I was sleep-deprived. He didn't care. I wanted more attention outside of sex. He didn't care. Can anybody relate to this? Please leave a comment about it. Read about it in the third Issue of Little Narc E-zine!
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