When my husband told me that he could have anyone he wanted, I was shocked. I almost laughed out loud. It sounded ridiculous. It takes some gall to think you can have anyone. He sounded delusional to me. I knew very well then, and still do, that I certainly cannot have anyone I want. I believe that when he said this to me, he was trying to convince me that I should be honored that he chose me. Never mind that he treated me like garbage. I was chosen by him. Therefore, I should have considered myself blessed. I should stop my complaining of his poor treatment of me. It was true that he could find someone else besides me, and would do so despite the fact that we were married. I had already found out that he had a girlfriend earlier during our marriage. I figured he probably still had a girlfriend (at least one) that I had not found out about. But I cannot be convinced that he can have anyone he wants. He simply is not God's gift to women as he seems to imagine.
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